(Source: bloodstained-buttercups-blog)
I know how you feel.
You sit there and wonder, am I even good enough? You fake smiles, fake laughs, you even fake Satisfaction. He doesn;t try like he used too. He stopped putting in effort. He used to make you feel irreplaceable. He would show up without you having to beg him. He would surprise you with your favorite snacks, and your favorite foods. He used to feed you with compliments, and with love letters. But you started to watch him slowly give up. The good morning texts got boring….And late. No more goodnight text….Nothing cute to wake up too. No more hearts to hearts or “god you mean the world to me.” All it is now is “kiss me.” Or “Come Play with me ;)” you start to wonder what place you fall under. Because you just realized your not first anymore. You think about him almost every second while he isn;t even thinking about you. You make up excuses for him when people point out his flaws. But deep down your noticing them too. Your scared to voice your feelings because you dont want to lose him… You dont want to start an argument. But you know you deserve better. He says he loves you. And your stuck wondering, “if you love me why dont you prove it.” And you wait for him to prove it. But he doesnt. You wait for him to start being a man. But he’s still a kid that doesnt even know what he wants. He tells you donnt do this dont do that. But when you even try to tell him that, he shuts you down. You try to tell him that if he doesnt start changing hes going to lose you. But he takes it as a joking matter because he knows you won’t walk away. Your broken, and you feel empty… The way he used to look at you changed …. His smile, the way his eyes lit, the way he made love to you, the way he said your name…… He changed. And you dont like it. You want to scream at him! You want him to wake the fuck up and be a man…… But he puts the blame on you each time…. I know how you feel.
